Bitch & Moan

5:30 pm-6:30 Treadmill/elliptical 

6:30-7:00 Abs & Glutes Express

Let me tell everyone something.

2011 was Not. My bitch. In fact, I became 2011’s bitch.

It put me through hell and I gained around oh-25lbs.

I gained 25 lbs.

I had goals, but I let my non-goal oriented self take over. And I gained around 25-27 lbs.

The good thing is that all hope is not lost. I can still loose it. I get so caught up on heating healthy and it just overwhelms me. Same with working out. Theres just so much I can do I just wind up getting overwhelmed and stop.

fitforsummerr:

runnerwithin:

youre-not-in-this-alone:

vintage-from-the-future:

so-unbeautiful:

thenotsouglygirl:

35 to be exact

 45-55 for me. And before summer.

at least 25 :)

27 <3

 already down 20!  hoping for another 30 this year!

about 40 or 50ish pounds :) depending on what I look like when I get down there

It seems everyone’s beating me without even trying at what I’m supposed to be good at. The one thing I pride myself on, everyone is beating me at it. And they don’t even rely on it as heavily as I do. They just all happen to be better, without even trying or caring.

That is the definition of discouraging. 

Hey!

I’m on some God sent roll here.

I’m on my third day…And  I burned:

• 800 cal the first day
• 670 the next day
• Today I did 700 and took a ballet core class!

My knees are kinda hurting so I did the incline..that stresses me out tho because I need to do cardio to become smaller…

And today I had to eat:

A big breakfast…probably around 500 cal :/ eggs and eggs and sausagew/cheese (Damn Dining hall food)

A Bananna 50 cal? Idk….20 cal?

A granola bar 200 cal

Starbucks light white chocolate mocha- 200

Dried apples- 110

So i’m still within the 1,200 range, yay!

glammommie asked: I've been there and back. You can do this!

I really  hope so. I’d like to think i’m stronger than this. 

That i’m stronger than my own limitations and impulses.

Thank you so much.

:] <3

I weigh 150 lbs

150 Fucking lbs

I have never seen that weight-ever.

I have never BEEN 150 lbs In. My. Life.

Just seeing that makes me wanna give up everything.

My norm has been 135-140

In essence, i weigh an extra 15 lbs.

What. The. Fuck.

How the hell am I gonna work off 20 lbs. I have this thing in my mind where weight just does not come off me. 

I’ve convinced myself that weight, not matter how much running I do…will…not..come..off me.

So in 3 months ill be 130 lbs, and I wasnt even that thin at 130 lbs

3 hard ass months to be what

Still fat

Fuck this

Anonymous asked: yes you can burn 20 lbs in 3 months, good luck with that! <3

Thank you!!!!!

<3

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Is it possible to loose 20 lbs in 3 months?

It was bad, not horrible.

Burned 645 cal

I’m back for the long run. Three months, 20 lbs. I’m doing it.

Do you think its possible to loose 20 lbs in 3 months?

Please tell me!

Working out SUCKS

it sucks

I hate it

I hate walking to my rec center

I hate feeling like im about to die whenever I run

I hate it. I hate working out, I hate getting ready to work out.

I hate running and being out of breath

I hate watching what I eat. I want to eat whatever I fucking want. I want to. I hate my body type. I hate my metabolism. 

I hate the act of getting in the “loosing weight” mindset because I have to give up so much.

Everything I fucking like just goes out the window.

Every drink, every piece of food I like………. I can’t eat.